36 Weeks

Discouraged. Overwhelmed. Frustrated.

Discouraged over Christina being breech. Knowing she could turn head down, but could also just as easily turn head up again. If she is breech when I am in labor, I will not be able to have a home birth. This is devastating to me. Even the midwife here who delivers breech babies, will not deliver a breech to a first time mom.

Overwhelmed with all that needs done. Today is John's last day of work before we leave. When we return he will hopefully have a work truck, a work cell phone with enough signal to communicate with (far different than what he has had), and a more consistent schedule with maybe even some days off!! We hope to leave before the weekend if we can tie up loose ends here.

Frustrated to have not finished painting. I am very thankful we got Christina's room done except for a few touch ups. That will make moving her things so much easier! I wish I could have done the same for our bedroom, both bathrooms, and dining room. Though I am the one with the most time, I also have the most limitations: should not inhale fumes, should not lift heavy things, should not over-do, should not go into labor before 37 weeks.

So, I am in a prime spot to learn patience, contentment, and gratefulness ;)